Tuesday, January 26, 2010

They Say When It Rains It Pours

I say when it rains, those seeds you planted are getting the necessary water for growth so we can have a harvest in the coming season.  Can I get an amen on that one?

So, I call my blog My Life.  Lately my life seems to be encompassed with the lives of my loved ones.  Here’s the skinny:

§         Cynthia – If you’ve been following Cynthia’s story, you know she had her surgery on January 15, 2010.  I haven’t updated Cynthia’s blog with her praise report, but it’s coming.  Either Cynthia or I will update it.  In the meantime, GOD is not good, He is GREAT!  The doctors took the lump just in time.  They found that it was contained to that lump alone, non-invasive, and they got the pre-cancerous scar tissue!  They said it was a very strange case.  I say Cynthia is blessed.  Thanks to everyone who prayed for her, offered support, and donated.  God will bless all of you as well.

§         Closer to home -  On Sunday, January 17, 2010, my cousin Tim Williams had a stroke in church.  Tim is only 41 years old and has been very close to me all of my life.  We have a very special bond.  I’m choking up with tears as I type this.  I just love him so much and seeing him in that condition is hard for me at times.  His wife has been such a trooper.  He told me she’s a strong woman and she must be to be married to him.  Timothy has not been completely awake since, but he is making slow and sure progress.  Please pray for Tim and his family.

§         Even closer to home – On Wednesday, January 20, 2010, just a few days after Timothy was struck, my step-father was told he has a type of blood cancer.  I think it’s multiple myeloma, but I’m not sure yet.  Everything is too early to tell with him.  We will know for sure in a few days.  Again, continue to pray for my family and me.

§         We went to court today.  Today was the final hearing.  Thank God it’s over.  Now let’s see if we can behave ourselves now…  If you didn’t already know, the wasbund sued me for a reduction in child support.  That’s all Imma say about that…

§         Tomorrow is my dad’s birthday.  His first since he left us for a better place back in March 2009.  God bless my dad, my brother Tony, my brother JJ, and my sister Crystal and my other mother Carrie.  I know tomorrow may be a bit hard on them.  Keep them in your prayers as well.

In other news, I have been busy with work and this thing called my life.  TJ leaves to go to San Antonio TX for Air Force Basic Training on February 2, 2010.  I’m really going to miss him.  He has been great with helping his brothers with their homework and school work.  He’s been able to give them some good advice on how to deal with Mommy and when is a good time to give Mommy bad news.  As much as I am going to miss him, he needs this new venture right now more than anything.

Work has been a pleasant distraction.  Watching grown men daily prove themselves to each other can be quite comical.  That’s all Imma say on that point.

Good news is that I have my health and my wealth.  God-willing, I plan to keep both.

Today I am grateful for:
§         My best lawyer ever – Kelly Seabrook.  If you ever need an attorney, I highly recommend Kelly.
§         Cynthia’s health – I am so happy she is healed.
§         Kim Jackson-Archie and Angela Magazinee – They were both so helpful and hopeful when they heard about Cynthia.
§         My own personal health and wealth.
§         My 3 sons.
§         My beautiful mother Brenda.
§         All who read this and continue to pray for my family.
§         Every time I post to my blog, I’m recording my own personal history and I love it.


Friday, January 22, 2010

Get Widdit!

For the past 2-3 weeks I don’t feel that I have been “widdit”.  I have been having trouble concentrating.  Strangely though, I have not had trouble sticking to certain tasks once I got started with them.

I have been feeling like I am doing something wrong.  Not living up to my potential.  Not following my true calling.  I have had this nagging feeling that I should be working in the health care field.  Ugh.  Back in 2006 I was seriously considering going back to school to get a degree in Physical Therapy.  The main things that kept me in my current field were the money and me not wanting to make such a drastic change.

I can do it.  I know I can.  Something is blocking me.  I am blocking myself.  Fear of losing the current salary I have.  Fear of changing my life so drastically in so many ways. 

I must be honest with myself.  I need to write down exactly what I want and how I want it.  I’ve been avoiding what’s true.  I’ve been avoiding my Dharma and it shows in every aspect of me and my life.  My bedroom turned into another mess about two weeks ago and I have not made any effort to fix it.  Despite the fact that I’ve been working out and eating right, I feel pregnant.  I hate it.

Work.  I like my job.  I like the work that I do.  However, I am not passionate about it.  I think that’s my problem.  I have no passion for this job.  I have moments when I get passionately frustrated.  But I do not have moments when I am passionately pleased or happy.  I do have those satisfied/pleased with my work moments.  I just cannot remember having a PASSION for this work.  If I ever did, I don’t remember it now.

In any event, that’s what I want.  I want to have a PASSION for the work that I do.  I want to love my job.  I want to love doing what I do on a daily basis.  I mean really LOVE it.

I embrace my Responsibility Affirmation for today:
“I no longer spend my time in fruitless activities, associations, or relationships.  I surround myself with people who honor my path, who manifest a positive attitude, who are empowering, & who are willing to give and receive my help.”  I had to delete some people from my life because they don’t fit this description.

§         I see my days beginning with yoga, meditation, prayer, reading, and writing.
§         Light housework.
§         Getting the boys started.  Assisting the boys in getting started with their day.  Overseeing the boys on the beginning of their day.  Guiding the boys on the beginning of their day.
§         A quick refreshing walk.
§         Breakfast.
§         Fulfilling work that I love and am passionate about.  Work in a field that fits who I am. 
§         Having a full productive day that I know matters in the grand scheme of things.
§         Home, family time, homework, dinner, light chores, self love, family love.

There.  I did it.  Next step is to go into more detail of a typical weekday and then a typical weekend.

Note:  All of this could have easily been prompted by a few personal things going in my life such as Cynthia’s situation, my cousin Timothy, and my step father’s illness all occurring at the same time.


Responsibility Affirmation for Today

I no longer spend my time in fruitless activities, associations or relationships. I surround myself with people who honour my path, who manifest a positive attitude, who are empowering, & who are willing to give and receive my help.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Friday, January 15, 2010

10 Rules To Live By

1.      Focus on what you want.

Do you focus on the road ahead or in the rearview mirror filled with the past? By focusing on the past, you tend to worry about the future because your focus carries the negative experiences from your past into your present. "Hold a picture of yourself long and steadily enough in your mind's eye and you will be drawn toward it." - Napoleon Hill


2.      Never give up.

Thomas Edison said it best -- ""Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time."


3.      One day at a time.

We achieve our dreams one day at a time, so set goals for each day that will take you, step by step, toward your desire. The pyramids weren't built in a week so learn to be patient. Do the best you can, enjoy this day, and be satisfied with what you've accomplished.  (This was a very difficult lesson for me to learn.)


4.      True happiness lies within you.

Don't waste time and effort searching for happiness, peace and contentment in the world outside. Reach inside yourself and pull out the better angels of your nature and give to someone else.


5.      Learn to be grateful.

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity.... It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow." - Melodie Beattie  (I am so grateful and thankful that I learned this lesson.  An exercise that helped with this was to keep a daily gratitude journal for 30 days.  That really works!)


6.      Expand your comfort zone.

Not a whole lot can change or happen when we stop challenging ourselves.


7.      You’re closer than you think.

There's an old Chinese proverb that goes something like this: "The temptation to quit will be greatest just before you are about to succeed."


8.      Don't take yourself seriously.

Learn to lighten up. Life is a game. Don't sweat the little stuff.... 'cause it's all little stuff.


9.      Be nice.

What is that old saying? You can catch more flies with honey than vinegar. Just another way of saying you can win people to your side more easily by gentle persuasion and flattery than by hostile confrontation. (Sometimes my own nature is to just spit it out and keep it moving.  I didn’t realize that this is sometimes considered hostile confrontation to some people.)


10.  Get out of your way.

As Warren Buffet said to a University of Washington audience several years ago regarding how he and Bill Gates became so successful: "Everybody here has the ability to do anything I do and much beyond. Some of you will, and some of you won't. For those who won't, it will be because you get in your own way, not because the world doesn't allow you to."






Cynthia update

I also got the following email from Mary Jo regarding Cynthia.  Please keep her in your prayers.  I think the key phrase in her email is, “The surgeon thinks.”  They’ve been thinking for a year and my faith in some of them is not optimistic or positive.


Please continue to pray for her and remember to check out the paypal Donate button in the right column of her blog.  You may have to scroll down to find it.





-----Original Message-----
Subject: Cynthia update


Cynthia is out of surgery. The surgeon thinks it was contained therefore they did the lumpectomy. She will be going home in a few hours.





Thank you,


Mary Jo

-- txt from Mike on Cynthia's status:
Ok so shes out.....everything went well.....shes in recovery.

Love Shower

Thank God It’s FRIDAY!  I can say that the best part of today so far is that I am above ground, it’s FRIDAY and Monday is a MLK HOLIDAY!  Yay Friday and Martin Luther King!


My shower has always had great water pressure.  So good it feels like a massage.  I love IT. Until this morning.  When I turned on the shower as usual, everything seemed fine.  Then, before I could even get in, I heard the water pressure decrease.  I looked in and it looked the same.  However, when I got in that good old reliable massaging pressure was gone.  I was not happy.  What would cause water pressure to all of a sudden change?  I looked it up.  I may need a plumber.  That is never good news.


Then when I got to work this morning, the floodgates were already open with requests, to do lists, emails, and “Keala Please Assist”.  “Keala Please Assist” translates to Keala you have to do this.  I tried to assist, but I just couldn’t function properly until I had completed my usual morning routine.  My routine was already tampered with by the absence of Cynthia.  To top it off there was no coffee and my eggs were runny.


Today is the day Cynthia has her lumpectomy.   Please visit her here and leave an encouraging comment or an encouraging donation.  I will be sending positive energy and prayers her way all day.  I’m sure you can do that too.


I have another dear sweet friend who is a distance healer who will be sending positive healing energy Cynthia’s way.



Wednesday, January 13, 2010

How to grow my curly hair into long beautiful and healthy locs

"Long, fun, time consuming, and all about ME."

How I did it: Well, in May of 2007 when I twisted my hair, I said I would leave them in and see what happens.  They locked.  It took time but it eventually happened.

I've decided to unravel them and go back to the loose stuff.  This is going to take more time than the locking I'm sure.  But I miss my hair the way it was before and I don't want to cut it.

Wish me success in this endeavor.

It took me 2 years.

It made me free

How to grow my curly hair into long beautiful and healthy locs

"Long, fun, time consuming, and all about ME."

How I did it: Well, in May of 2007 when I twisted my hair, I said I would leave them in and see what happens.  They locked.  It took time but it eventually happened.

I've decided to unravel them and go back to the loose stuff.  This is going to take more time than the locking I'm sure.  But I miss my hair the way it was before and I don't want to cut it.

Wish me success in this endeavor.

It took me 2 years.

It made me free

Monday, January 11, 2010

I Have Three

that are all different and for different purposes. Check them out.

*My Personal Blog
*One I Co-Author about breast cancer that is absolutely AMAZING
*One for my soon to be full time Ardyss business.

All 3 are on blogger by Google. You won’t be bored or disappointed.

How to remember Daddy by writing about him.

"Only One Entry"

How I did it: I only wrote one entry.  Every time I attempted, I got sad.  I spent much time in November and December crying over him because I miss him so much.

I'm just not ready for this goal yet.  Maybe later.

It took me 1 day.

It made me sad

Any Suggestions?

For this week? I’m looking for something that will spark a lively discussion among all of us. Remember Allan is 8, William is 12, and TJ is 19.

How to love and be loved

"It starts with loving yourself."

How I did it: I started loving me first.  When I released all of the pain of the past and forgave myself and others, I became FREE to love and be loved.

The next thing I did was to list what it took to love me.  Then I did all it took to love me.

After that I listed the qualities I wanted in a mate.  Then I posted my personal qualities and the ones I were looking for on an internet dating site and began accepting applications.

I made it fun for me.  If someone didn't meet my standards, fine.  It was fun finding out if they met them.  Weeding through the "weeds" was a fun experience for me.

When I finally met the right person, I had to learn to trust again and allow myself to become vulnerable with him.  He has been awesome.  I am totally transparent with him and he loves me and vice versa.  We work so well together.

We accept each other right where we are and we are both willing to grow together.  This is something we both have come to terms with.

Lessons & tips:
  • forgive yourself of your transgressions
  • forgive others of past transgressions against you 
  • forgiveness allows you to be free 
  • love yourself
  • learn your good and bad qualities so you'll know what you have to offer and what needs improvement.  
  • if necessary, enlist the help of close personal friends and relatives 
  • list what you want in a loving mate  
  • put your desires out into the universe 

It took me 40 years.

It made me happy and at peace

Monday, January 4, 2010

Happy New Year!

This Year Will be the Best Year of My Life


Step 1~I will Create a Gratitude List for 2009.  
List all the things for which I'm grateful.  
Gratitude, releases endorphins, creating a feeling of well being.  

Step 2~ I will Release and Forgive
Release all resentment, anger, hurt & pain from 2009. Forgive myself & others for any wrongs.  
Clear out resentments, to make room for the new blessings.  

Step 3~Know What I Want for 2010
Create the Life I want.   Get clear about my goals. Commit my goals to paper. 

What will be different for you in 2010?

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